Love vs. Fear

This is a newer tower, with handrails. The old one had none.

Fear of falling from heights is a natural human survival instinct. My sister is endowed with more than her fair share of this terrible fear.

Here is the story my sister told me, in her words:

Every weekend, my husband and I and our neighbours’ family packed our kids in the cars, and drove out to spend the day in the country. We had found the perfect picnic spot near the fire lookout tower up on Puggins Mountain.  It was a great place for the kids to play – lots of fresh air, no traffic worries, nothing they could get into … I thought.

On these outings, after our picnic snack, our families split into two teams and played ballgames that kids and adults alike could enjoy. One day, we were playing a game when one of my older children yelled, “Mom, look what Marianne is doing.”

I thought I would have a heart attack. There on the top of the fire lookout, at least 30 or 40 feet up, was my two-year-old daughter. How she had climbed without falling, all the way to the top on stairs that had no railing, was a miracle. It would take another miracle to get her down unharmed.

Without thinking I climbed up after her, reaching her in a matter of seconds. I clutched her to me and didn’t let go. Did I mention I am scared of heights? I can’t even climb on a kitchen chair without getting dizzy.

So there we were near the top of the tower. My daughter was safe in my arms, but as I looked down, I froze solid with fear. In the meantime, my husband had followed us. He tried to calm us down, but I couldn’t move.

It seemed to take forever, but one step at a time, he convinced us to come down.

That day, I learned something about a mother’s instinct to protect her children. That instinct must be very powerful to override my unreasonable fear of heights. I also learned that from then on, it was better to picnic in a place without towers of any kind.

10 thoughts on “Love vs. Fear

  1. Sonja

    That’s a great story! The instinct to protect your children must be very strong for you to climb up there without giving it a second thought. Lucky that Mike followed you up there, no doubt knowing that you would be frozen with fear at the top. Whew…you must have been terrified. Glad it all worked out!!! What a good mom!


  2. wordsfromanneli Post author

    I must say, my sister was pretty brave going up there, but if it was my daughter up there, I’m sure I would have done the same thing. Still, it’s the stuff of nightmares for some time afterwards.


  3. Sartenada

    I love the reading. Every one we have different fears. I am afraid of high towers and one example is from Toronto Cn tower. I am not afraid of driving fast. On German highways there are no speed limits and to drive there fast is to me culmination experience.



Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s